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Personal Narrative-Why I Chose To Be My Hero

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Once, in the ninth grade, I came home in the evening and couldn’t find my mother inside. All of the lights were off, the television was off, dinner in the oven was burnt beyond recognition, and she was nowhere. I’ve always known that my family isn’t the American dream. My father has never been around, but coping with his abandonment wasn’t something I struggled with. Instead, my world imploded when I found out that my mother, the woman who used to be my hero, is an alcoholic. I found her on the tile floor of her own bathroom, unconscious. I thought for just a brief moment I had found my mother’s body, that I was now completely alone in the world. I have relived this night dozens of times over, but each time I come home to my drunken mother, …show more content…

As long as I live, I’ll never forget when she said, “I guess I just don’t love myself enough.” And I, still foolish enough to think that I could save her, said, “It’s okay, I’ll love you enough for the both of us.” Except now I wonder, who is going to love my mother when I go away? Who is going to love me when I go away? Stoak 3 The answer to the first question is still unknown to me. I worry, The answer to the first question is still unknown to me. I worry, somehow, that when I leave for school, I’ll forget how to love the woman that passes out on the floors of bathrooms and sometimes looks at me with bleary, unseeing eyes. I worry I’ll forget how to forgive her for what she’s done to herself. I’ll stop seeing the beautiful woman I used to be inspired by and I’ll see her for what she might really be: a broken, unfixable person. The answer to the second question is simple in theory but difficult in practice. I am going to have to love myself. I will have to accept my faults just as I accepted my mother’s, and I will have to trust other people will find me lovable after they get to know

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